I should probably write more often, but it is hard to know what to say, much less what to feel, much much less what to share.  Some days I am excited and other days I wonder what in the world we are doing.  Some days I can't wait, other days I wonder if we can still back out.  And every day I wonder how we will pay for this/him/her.  I wonder how I can love another child as much as I love my biological children.  I wonder if I will regret doing this.  Logically and realistically I know I will come to love this new adopted child equally and completely, and most likely I will wonder how we ever questioned if we should do this or not.  But that is really hard to imagine at this point.  Especially since it seems we are light years away from the final "product", and life is busy enough as it is.  I think going from one child to two I have learned a lot about staying calm amid chaos and even enjoying the happy chaos.  I still don't really know what I want to do with my life, but the one thing I know is this: I like being a mom.  I like being tired at the end of the day from being the best mom that I can be.  That being said- it is time for bed.

Disclaimer:  I have looked at several blogs (some even adoption-specific) lately that are very cute and put-together.  I don't have time for making this look nice, but please imagine some nice backdrops as you are reading and enjoy some ice cream (if you haven't seen forks over knives) while you read.